Reflections  

This blog isn't for anyones benfit but i guess more for me to unload my thoughtsAt the moment i cbb writing bout my personality, mainly cos i'm at work and have work to do hahaha, but yeh sitting here on my lunch break with my coke zero in one hand staring out of the swan overlooking the narrows bridge and mouse with the other, sumhow it makes me think bout life. I guess lookin at the bridge you kinda see cars drive over it and boats go under it it makes me wonder how their life is, where are they going, are they enjoying themselves, and most importantly are they happy with their life.

A question like that i guess most people would give the answer "yeh its alright" i myself being one of those ppl. It also on the other hand depends on the situation at the time. However looking back at the past year it makes me realise how much has really happened. Like i actually have graduated this year which for me was a huge feat (for those who have known me for a long time u'll understand why). Cutting things short i almost gave up a few times particularly around the highschool stage and wantd to either jus get a normal 'hobo' job (Hobo meanin non uni educated its my dads terminology gotta love him haha) or even the thought of joining the defence force crossed my mind several times. However luckily God sat me down and told me i have purpose and it was not to be a slacker but to be all that i am meant 2 be. Which brings me to another point that i hear alot of people ask, how do we know wat we are doing is what God wants us to be doing?? My answer to that is simply (answer wif question) do you enjoy/are you good at what you are doing?? if the answer is Yes the chances are its probably wat God wanted you to be doing. As God probably gave you those gifts to be good at/enjoy what your doing.

Oh other things to point out wat happened during the year which impacted me:

* Hamilton world youngest F1 Champ, although i hate the guy wif a passion he has taught me valuable lessons that nothing is impossible, do what you enjoy and have a passion for and the world is your oyster :)
* Gotten my first fulltime 'proper' job funnily enough it was also the easiest job i've landed :S like interview process was quick and smooth, job training was easy ppl i work with are great and supportive
* First time flying in plane (hillsong Sydney and Melb 08 Trip) wat an amazing time that was, not only did i get to know soo many ppl from Melb i made new friends with those that came that i never really talked to (Perthies)
* Which leads me to my next point, all my friends that i have made this year and those that have grown over the past year i am soo greatful for all those relationships and i pray that they will continue to grow. Like some of you guys may not know but its you guys that has kept me from cracking :P and helped me develop more into wat God wants me to be.
* Graduated as mentioned above
* Obama :D yeh!!!! first black president i'm sure dat will impact me soon enough haha
* Had my green turtle shell stolen from me, (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I HATE YOU :P) I just hope it brings u more happiness den it did me otherwise GRRRRRR

But yeh like sitting here i'm actually quite content with where i am in life, obviously i'm striving to improve it every day, but i also wonder wat life woulda been like if i was as smart as some of my friends. Like a gud friend mine who can sumhow sleep 4 hrs a day and manage to get credit minimal and on most occasions get D's or HD's with minimal study , or another friend who can study whilst b on msn and sumhow go through med, or one of my colleagues who claims she slept 2 hrs a night since she was 14 till d age of 21 and manage to look after her child (single mum during uni) and still get D's and HD's these ppl amaze me at their commitment and strength that God has given to them. I pray they do not take it for granted as its such an amazing ability. But i guess on the other hand everyone has their place in the world and they have been allocated their gifts for a reason and purpose. If i had those gifts i'll prob be in sum uptight private firm that will make me work 10 hrs a day and i wud have no time for anyone or anything else in my life. Which i guess i am very greatful for. (obvioulsy the pay would be better but is it really worth sacrificing everything else? my answer is no)

anyway i'd betta get bak to work, d mentos and coke are not mixin very well soo i'm gettin fidgity hahaha to much sugar :P till nxt time :D *hug* or *pat* (u noe who u are) hehe

Z