Pondering
Posted by Z_Blogz
well this is the second rewrite and its close 2 1am now and yeh i guess that was a waste of an hour. I had jus been told that i suck by a friend, and that she thinks i'm gay too, unsure how she came to that conclusion but wateva i guess hahaha. Which is why i have been pondering.... i know she doesn't mean it despite her constant reminder, its the actions that seem to speak louder to me then her words, threats, beatings, and even tried 2 run me over with her car with her mum in it once. But yeh hahaha i know her heart is in d right place, she's being d friend shes always been and as she likes 2 put it, she says it cos its true... and that honesty hurts.
Which makes me wonder, where does the truth lie in sum ppls words, obviously there are tell tale signs that say when ppl are lying to you. However these signs are never 100% true and obvioulsy vary between ppl to ppl. Should we even care bout wat people think? my ideal answer if no, as i think we should only care about what God thinks of us. But i also think that is easier said then done. I myself i think is very vain, like constantly worried bout appearances and presenting myself well however i know that the person that i will eventually spend the rest of my life with will not care bout such minor details as they will be able to see past the flaws and see right into my heart.
Once again i'm hungry haha, excersie sucks cos it makes u eat more haha, yes random but yeh.
anyway gettin late and i can't think right now soo yeh.. short one tonight neway byes all