Looking through the clear sheet of a hardened liquid, where in the distance the canvas is intricately designed by Man and God. Where God laid down the foundations of endless blue and green and man ‘finished’ it off interlacing it with strips of black tarmac and long strips of metal. As the piece of artwork dynamic and always changing, I roll my eyes over to the horizon where it seemingly remains constant, my mind begins to wonder. I think to myself wow what a beautiful day, what a beautiful new year as my mind wonders pacing back and fourth scanning, pondering, over what the next point should be, finally resting on resolutions. Particularly New years Resolutions, and noting the fact that resolutions has never been apart of me. Scrounging about to recollect any goals, ambitions and achievements to be completed and gained during 2009. Finally ending with the following list:
* Recommence some form of study weather technical, educational, musical. At the moment I have my eye on the CFA, excel courses (yes call me nerd), and I’ve also gotten an eye on a new music direction but I’ll keep that under raps for the mean while :P
* Work goals, to understand my job :P, to determine which department I would like to be in for the next couple of years, and finally to be consistent in my work.
* Personal skills: I’ve noticed I’m becoming increasingly impatient, judgemental and quick to draw conclusions about people. Thus I would like to improve these areas and thus maximise the gifts that God has given to me. I would also like to work on compassion (yes becos of you and your conviction you gave me) I would like to have more compassion for those around me and particularly those who drives me up the wall. Last year and this year was the first time I felt enraged to the point where I refused to overlook the issue, wishing to take the law into my own hands and literally beat the living daylights out of DT. However as I have told you before, I do not have a grudge against you, but against wat you are doing. I am going to continue to pray for you, and I hope you see the consequences of your actions if you maintain your current course of action. Oh I would also like to be more opened in terms of knowing how to talk to people like have the wisdom to understand and help those in need.
* Financial Goals: Definitely learn to save/budget my money much betta and not go wasting it on things that don’t matter. Yes enjoy life but not to the point where a full time job cannot support one person lol.
* Major purchases for 2009 (hopefully): New Car :D, get my DSLR I’ve currently got my eye on a Canon 50D with 17-85mm kit lens, a 24-70mm F2.8L lens and a flash unit, urmm I would like to get a new desktop computer to do all my editing/downloading needs :P would love a mac pro but 4k?? I don’t see that happening anytime soon haha and last but not least my 2 confirmed trips over east and 1 unconfirmed visit.
* Friendships: its always good to have more friends…but this year I would like to focus on the friends I have over East and particularly Perth peep’s.
* Family I would love to spend more time with my family this year, and I would like to build the relationship and ability to talk without tension. How I am going to achieve this I have no idea.
Finally love… yes lame… and sad you may but its something important to me. I want to learn how to love. Honestly I don’t believe I know the true meaning of love. The bible says God is Love, and to be honest I don’t think I know a lot about God, so this year I am going to concentrate on God and then maybe I’ll appreciate the gift of Love that God has given to us…
Anyway I’d better get back to work, my two supervisors are starting to give me strange looks :P I think I can only pretend to do work for so long haha. Anyway till next time.
God Bless
Z
PS Pastor Colin thank you in advanced I have faith things will be fine.