Its funny how reading one's bible can reveal soo many inspirational quotes, despite the number of years that has been invested in me through the many many bible teachers that i've had, the many devotions undergone, prayer meetings, cell meetings etc there's always a verse that jus jumps out and screams out. 

Hi i have decided to post these two letters from Daniel Truong... not to harm him but to help him. I hope all those who read this support him as he will need it in the coming weeks. The truth will hopefully set him free.

Looking through the clear sheet of a hardened liquid, where in the distance the canvas is intricately designed by Man and God. Where God laid down the foundations of endless blue and green and man ‘finished’ it off interlacing it with strips of black tarmac and long strips of metal. As the piece of artwork dynamic and always changing, I roll my eyes over to the horizon where it seemingly remains constant, my mind begins to wonder. I think to myself wow what a beautiful day, what a beautiful new year as my mind wonders pacing back and fourth scanning, pondering, over what the next point should be, finally resting on resolutions. Particularly New years Resolutions, and noting the fact that resolutions has never been apart of me. Scrounging about to recollect any goals, ambitions and achievements to be completed and gained during 2009. Finally ending with the following list:

* Recommence some form of study weather technical, educational, musical. At the moment I have my eye on the CFA, excel courses (yes call me nerd), and I’ve also gotten an eye on a new music direction but I’ll keep that under raps for the mean while :P

* Work goals, to understand my job :P, to determine which department I would like to be in for the next couple of years, and finally to be consistent in my work.

* Personal skills: I’ve noticed I’m becoming increasingly impatient, judgemental and quick to draw conclusions about people. Thus I would like to improve these areas and thus maximise the gifts that God has given to me. I would also like to work on compassion (yes becos of you and your conviction you gave me) I would like to have more compassion for those around me and particularly those who drives me up the wall. Last year and this year was the first time I felt enraged to the point where I refused to overlook the issue, wishing to take the law into my own hands and literally beat the living daylights out of DT. However as I have told you before, I do not have a grudge against you, but against wat you are doing. I am going to continue to pray for you, and I hope you see the consequences of your actions if you maintain your current course of action. Oh I would also like to be more opened in terms of knowing how to talk to people like have the wisdom to understand and help those in need.

* Financial Goals: Definitely learn to save/budget my money much betta and not go wasting it on things that don’t matter. Yes enjoy life but not to the point where a full time job cannot support one person lol.

* Major purchases for 2009 (hopefully): New Car :D, get my DSLR I’ve currently got my eye on a Canon 50D with 17-85mm kit lens, a 24-70mm F2.8L lens and a flash unit, urmm I would like to get a new desktop computer to do all my editing/downloading needs :P would love a mac pro but 4k?? I don’t see that happening anytime soon haha and last but not least my 2 confirmed trips over east and 1 unconfirmed visit.

* Friendships: its always good to have more friends…but this year I would like to focus on the friends I have over East and particularly Perth peep’s.

* Family I would love to spend more time with my family this year, and I would like to build the relationship and ability to talk without tension. How I am going to achieve this I have no idea.
Finally love… yes lame… and sad you may but its something important to me. I want to learn how to love. Honestly I don’t believe I know the true meaning of love. The bible says God is Love, and to be honest I don’t think I know a lot about God, so this year I am going to concentrate on God and then maybe I’ll appreciate the gift of Love that God has given to us…

Anyway I’d better get back to work, my two supervisors are starting to give me strange looks :P I think I can only pretend to do work for so long haha. Anyway till next time.

God Bless


Z

PS Pastor Colin thank you in advanced I have faith things will be fine.

The cool wind lifts my hair as it swiftly stabs into my eyes rubbing and brushing my hair aside, i slowly reopened my eyes to notice a large black crow had landed nearly disturbing the peace of my surroundings. The peace created by the lush green grass that seems to be rare in the heat of the summer, the cool blue swan river and clear blue skies. Over the horizon the hasty city life is observed as i eyeball one particular building, wondering how the occupants day is going. As this building is where i am meant to be today but despite this i continue to sit and enjoy this amazing Monday.

Every year seemes to be more of the same of the previous year despite how life always seems to improve every year. I guess its kinda ironic how i look forward to every new year but dread the fact knowing that i am also getting a year older. 

scanning the environment i don't see you anywhere saddened that you cannot be located, running back and fourth room to room yet no one could be seen in sight. Desperation turns to anger slamming each door almost ripping each door off its hinges. screaming in desperation for you to hear my cry, finally i find you i scream i yell i cough and splatter but you pay no attention to me.

Looking at your foolish heart and selfish desires

But you constantly remind yourself that your deeds are for love and fire

little do you realise that your selfish desires are ruining lives

You lie you cheat you deceive, smiling to the world like your care free

But my heart knows your pride your stupidity will only make her flee

Desperately you cling onto what was once yours

Telling yourself that your persistence will soon pay have its rewards

Little do you realise you have gone far beyond the point of no return

I pray you understand the plan God has for you for your to learn

and not turn

into the bitter, selfish person i currently see you are

The time is now, the time is now

Now is the time to look past your 'heart' and look at what is right

For when you do you will see the light

that God has placed upon your life

So that you can shine right through the night

Hate, anger, disappointment, and resentment

is how i feel towards you during this predicament

By the Grace of Jesus upon my life i too can forgive

But only if you can learn to let her live

For wat you are doing is more than a mere crime

once again i reiterate, now is not the time

Now is the time

Time for peace, time of rest, time to let go...